Wednesday, February 24, 2010

He is amazing

Each time we are together - when we are apart I think of him too - he's is just the most perfect man for me! I've asked my friend A some personal questions about him - b/c he says one thing, but does another that is not in context with what he is saying. She has never seen him be affectionate with a woman he's dating in social situatons - he is with me. He's never spoken about his mom to her (she's known him for 10 years and was close to him when his mom passed) - he has spoken to me about her. I can see it in his eyes. We are so comfortable together! Last night, we laid on the couch together (he was leaning into me so I could rub his neck and shoulders/arms - he did a lot of work yesterday with lifting) and watched hockey - so nice. We are going to a game in 3 weeks - "long term" plans are good. I've stayed over several times - I'm so comfortable there - I love his house. There is so much potential to help him move past the sadness I know he feels. If it rains this weekend - we're going to probably end up painting the closet - again, something to change in the house so it is less his parents' house and more his. I have never been so happy.

Friday, February 19, 2010

It's going to be a good year....

Well, after 2009 ended, things seemed to begin to do a 180 for me - and I couldn't be happier. Got a HUGE grant for a project at school :). Several of my students have made it all the way to state sci fair, and my academic competition team is prepping hard - and we got a new buzzer system! All-in-all - work has improved drastically and I am really having a good year. Beyond always being backed up with work....
I've also met the most wonderful man. We had "met" before through a mutual friend, but now we are actually dating. We never run out of stuff to talk about - 5-6 hours at a time - it's amazing. I wake up and he's the first thought I have. We have so many life parallels it's simply uncanny. I asked my "second mom" today (who has is married for the second time) - how did she know and when did she know that her husband was "the one" - she said within 3-4 days, and that she simply could not imagine NOT being with her husband. I might be jumping the gun (and of course would never tell him this....) ....I'm there. It's not that I can't live without him - I really don't think I want to. I look ahead, and I can see us together. We are so comfortable with one another it's like we've known each other for years. I've NEVER had this happen with any guy I've ever dated. He seems to instinctively know exactly what I like and definitely takes initiative (something that is incredibly important to me). I can't wait to see him again. He calls, he texts, we talk, we drink wine, we talk. I don't even care if we go out or stay in - as long as I get to be with him. We've talked about movies dozens of times - we have yet to watch one. We are just enjoying each others' company so much - we don't need to do anything else. For the first time in my life, I want someone so much that I'm really not sure how to handle it. For now, I'm living in the moment and just enjoying every minute I can. For now, that has to be enough. I'm just hoping he feels the same way.